My Second Statement Of Purpose

My original goal was to write about threading. I have not been writing about it once after we started blogging. I guess that means that I should pick a goal that does not involve just one topic. After looking over my blog, I noticed that I have been writing about lots of different topics. I don’t like how I write or what I write about though. My writing seems so boring to me. I have a hard time trying to find something to write about each week, so the best I can do is write about my week and make it at least 300 words and I'm done.
So here is my new goal in writing: I want my writing to look more professional. When someone looks at it, I want them to think that I know what I'm talking about.
My first goal in general is that I want to stop procrastinating. because of procrastination, I have been doing really bad in school lately. I have an F in Spanish for this quarter. It all came down to a notebook check, and I had literally nothing on mines. I had about 13 things in it out of 60 things. I know, how great. It was all because I always thought I had time to do them so I was never worried. I wasn't worried until the last day of the quarter where my teacher asked us to leave our notebook with her, I was horrified. When I got it back, I was really afraid to to check the grade. But I guess I kind of deserved that grade because of how I never actually did anything in that class.
My second goal is that I want to stop thinking in such a negative way about myself. I know everyone says this and Other people think it's not that big a deal. But to me, it is a huge deal because whatever I do I don't think I'm good enough. Most people would be like, "then why don't you try harder?" If I'm not good enough for something, I give up on it. I stop caring about it. This is what happened with most of my work. All my classes, I think it's too hard so I wont even try, or I think that I'm not good enough to make something or play some kind of sport, so I wont even try it at all.